waiting for hope...

Yesterday was the pitts and today hasn't been so good either.
I got my first ever speeding ticket last night on the way home from the women's Bible Study. I was already feeling pretty weak and down and just flat out melancholy yesterday and so the speeding ticket was pretty much overkill. I haven't cried as much as I did last night in quite some time. My friends came around me and gave me scriptures and encouragement, which helped. Their support is much appreciated. But above all else I wanted Jesus. I wanted the rapture to come so I could be with Him. I went to bed early...just completely ready for the day to be over and for a new day to begin.

My friend Jay told me that I should listen to the song by Brooke Fraser called, C.S. Lewis Song. As I listened to this song the lyrics ministered to me. Here they are below:

If I find in myself
desires nothing in this world can satisfy,
I can only conclude
that I, I was not made for here
If the flesh that I fight is at best
only light and momentary,
then of course I'll feel nude
when to where I'm destined I'm compared

Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan
as I wait for hope to come for me

Am I lost or just less found?
On the straight or on the roundabout
of the wrong way?
Is this a soul that stirs in me
is it breaking free, wanting to come alive?
'Cos my comfort would prefer for me to be numb
And avoid the impending birth
of who I was born to become

Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan
as I wait for hope to come for me

For we, we are not long here
Our time is but a breath,
so we better breathe it
And I, I was made to live
I was made to love
I was made to know you
Hope is coming for me
Hope, He's coming for me
Hope is coming for me
Hope, He's coming

Speak to me in the light of the dawn
Mercy comes with the morning
I will sigh and with all creation groan
as I wait for hope to come for me
For me, for me, for me